~ Quote -Neil Gaiman (Preludes and Nocturnes, c. 1991)
You’re holding on to something because you feel a slight ounce of security—knowing that it won’t vanish away so quickly. Because you hate when things leave your life, especially when they mean something to you. It’s just funny that you will hold on to something despite the fact that it’s slowly tearing away your life and quietly hurting you. You know the consequences but you try to ignore them. But no matter what, they’re going to catch up with you.
She seeks to love, yet she’s afraid at the same time. Through observations around her and the pain that has hurt her, she has every reason to be afraid. She wants to clutch at the very chance she has for someone to prove her wrong, but she’s afraid. She’s afraid that if she holds on to someone or something once again, it will only slip through her fingers only to be gone for good. And just like that, another piece of her heart goes missing.